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Well.. it's been 11 years today since we buried Amy... I can't believe it's been so long.. it's kinda worse this year in some ways and better in others.. having Tisha here is reminding me so much of the fun of having a little girl.. I'm really enjoying her.. but the fear of her dying whenever she's out of my sight is a little hard to take sometimes.. I let her sleep in her crib for the first time last night.. and I woke up at 430 this morning in a panic that I should go check on her and make sure she hadn't died on me in her sleep. Only the slightly irrational thought that if she had died me going in to check on her wouldn't fix anything kept me from getting up... luckily she woke up a few minutes later and put my mind at ease.. I brought her back to my bed to keep myself sane. It's monday.. that means Mike is coming down to visit tonight.. I think we're gonna watch some monty python and hopefully I'll be awake enough to hang out with M...

Thought I'd post a pic of Tisha's gorgeous smile for ya! Isn't she adorable! I could just waste entire days staring at her... Well.. it's been a busy week. Yesterday was a snowday for the kids.. thank god I have nice neighbours.. and they have a snowblower.. we'd still be digging out now if it wasn't for them.. I think I'll make them some cookies.. especially after the little jacket they brought over for Tisha the other day.. purple eeyore jacket.. made out of the same fabric as her favorite blankie! So since I had the day off of driving around like usual yesterday I spent the day painting the kids rooms. I did Tisha's in yellow and the boys wanted all the walls different colors.. so they have two yellow walls a green wall and a blue wall :) it looks pretty good but definitely needs a second coat of paint. I had no idea just how dark the paint that was up actually was.. until I put this stuff on top and saw the contrast.. their rooms look so much...