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Well.. another day.. another boring boring day. We have these old dressers... looking kinda bad.. well.. not kinda.. they look REALLY bad.. and so the guy in the mall who does the furniture refinishing.. sent out an estimator to see what it would cost to refinish them.. make em pretty again.. well.. I had no inkling of just how expensive it is to refinish dressers.... they wanted.. 600$ per dresser.. geez.. nope.. not gonna happen.. no way.. no how.. I will take up furniture refinishing as a hobby myself before I pay that kinda money.. jeepers creepers.. on the upside.. I am reaffirmed that they are worth fixing up.. also.. she mentioned in passing that my piano stool is probably worth about 2000$ .. rough estimate.. on the low side.. she says.. still not parting with it.. that piano stool is probably the coolest peice of furniture in this entire house.. it's got little claw feet.. with like.. crystal balls on the bottom.. and apparently it's mahogany.. and wouldn't h...

***You Are 80% Open Minded*** You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself. You Are Mint Green Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well. Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations. You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life. Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them! You Are Somewhat Machiavellian You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!...

anyhoo.. if anyone wants to know what'd going on in my life.. me and Matty are trying for baby # 3 (4) or however you figure that one.. 3 for him 4 for me.. 3rd child.. geez.. ok hell.. just we're gonna have another kid... the ultimate goal here is to do this spending as little cash as possible on actual baby stuff.. I have come to the conclusion over 3 babies that they really don't use all that stuff very long.. and to dish out thousands of dollars on exersaucers, playpens, etc.. just doesn't make sense.. it's only used for a few months.. so where I would spend is on a stroller and a playpen. because those two actually get used... stroller constantly.. and heck.. the baby sleeps WITH me.. so a playpen for naps. everything else would have to be hand me downs.. or borrowed.. So far I seem to have a stroller... and a car seat.. and TONS of girl clothes size 6 months... (mostly from my dolls.. but a few from a baby friend)I've been developing a business idea... I...

Ok.. I'm full of shit.. it's still raining! But things are GOOD!!! After all my disappointment with valentines.. Matty really pulled through!.. Last night he came home from work and set us up with an in home date!.. he set the kids up in the basement with Herbie the love bug.. and Kraft Dinner.. and Set us up with a candlelit steak dinner and 3 romantic movies!!! What a great night! I really had a good time and I have to say it's the best valentines since we got together! period! hands down! AND Today my T4's came in to do my taxes.. and this is cool.. I spent the first 2 hours going through trying to figure out what the hell I was doing.. the government in it's major intelligence sent out our tax packages.. and then a week later send out a new revised version of half of the forms.. So I was going back and forth trying to figure out which ones to fill out.. THOUGHT I was done.. but couldn't figure out why it hadn't given me anywhere to claim that I have...

Well.. I guess it's about time I updated here.. It's been a few weeks.. but honestly.. not much has happenned.. I've been selling off a lot of my dolls and the clothes I make for them to try and save up for a new softie.. ended up deciding against a new softie as I don't want to make the ones I have less special.. I think I will just work on my soft sculpting a bit more and see what I can come up with.. I've been really improving with it.. figured out a few more things.. like really pulling the stitches a lot tighter than I was before.. and putting a stitch between the eyes to form the bridge of the nose before making the eyes and mouth.. my noses have gotten a lot better too.. so I'm pretty excited about that.. I managed to adopt out a couple softies this month... so that's nice that I'll have a bit of grocery money.. I don't understand what's been happenning lately but we are freaking broke. I don't know if all the bills just went u...

You might be a Redneck Jedi if..... you ever heard the phrase, "May the force be with y'all." your Jedi robe is camouflage. you have ever used your light saber to open a bottle of Bud Light. at least one wing of your X-Wing is primer colored. you can easily describe the taste of an Ewok. you have ever had a land-speeder up on blocks in your yard. the worst part of spending time on Dagobah is the dadgum skeeters. wookiees are offended by your B.O. you have ever used the force to get yourself another beer so you didn't have to wait for a commercial. you have ever used the force in conjunction with fishing/bowling. your father has ever said to you, "Shoot, son come on over to the dark side...it'll be a hoot." you have ever had your R-2 unit use its self-defense electro-shock thingy to get the barbecue grill to light. you have a confederate flag painted on the hood of your land-speeder. you ever fantasized about Princess Leah wearing Daisy Duke shorts. you h...

well.. the comment has been made that it's time to update my blog again.. so here I am... wouldn't want y'all to get out of the loop now.. Today was a pretty good day.. we had a meeting at work.. and at the end of it I asked my manager about floor walking.. (which is peer support.. means off the phones..) and she said that she was going to talk to me about setting that up next week!! that I was a stellar rep!! (yes.. that's her exact words.. STELLAR) and I earned it.. and deserved it.. and she'd make sure I was up doing that within the next couple weeks.. !!!!!!! about freaking time.. I've only been wanting to since I started there.. lol.. YAY the boxing week sales were fun.. I found some super cute shoes for my softie.. for 6$ at zehrs.. which is good.. cause she's been in her socks for months now.. I ended up picking up a pair for my friend too.. cause I know she'll like them for her softie.. and she is always so nice to me.. then on payday....

Well.. Christmas was suprisingly better than expected.. and also a lot more uncomfortable.. There's nothing quite like being totally spoiled... and not being able to give much back.. I felt like an absolute idiot.. look at me.. I'm such a screwup.. I couldn't even afford more than 5$ for a gift for you.. and you got me a stereo.. dammit... oh look.. you made me a beautiful CPK outfit.. and a shelf.. and I got you a garden ornament... I suck... anyways.. .it WAS nice.. cause I managed to see everyone.. even mom and dad at the same time for 1/2 an hour.. and no one did anything remotely nasty.. or argued.. so I guess I got my christmas wish.. I just wish I could have given out better gifts.. I really felt stupid for not doing my jam this year... then again.. most people have probably had enough of my jam... it's not like anyone asked about it.. not like when I did cookies... hmmm... thoughts.... My car is getting progressively more frustrating.. the rad overheats... ...

Well.. another two weeks older... and nothing to show for it.. :) It's been an interesting few weeks.. last week I decided.. on wednesday.. to throw a kids cookie making party.. on friday.. So I invited over about 10 kids to bake gingerbread cookies with us.. what fun!! we had 3 different kinds of icing and 5 or 6 different types of sprinkles to decorate them with. I got a look at Drew on thursday while he was getting dressed and Oh my.. that child has lost too much weight.. I think his dose is too high... so I'm taking him off on the weekends and holidays.. and feeding him extra carnation breakfasts with every meal.. try to get some weight on him.. must call doctor soon.... I tried that day.. but no answer.. My dad's family christmas party was yesterday. I spent the past month kinda depressed because I couldn't get the day off.. last week I called in sick on saturday.. (I really was sick.. icky migraine nastiness) and figured there was no way I'...

It's been an emotional rollercoaster of a week.. I went a little bonkers in bulk barn the other day.. ended up buying chocolate chips, and mint chocolate chips, and white chocolate chips, and butterscotch chips, and peanut butter chips, and rainbow chips... (I only MEANT to go in for chocolate chips.. figured it'd save money.. ended up spending 10$ on chocolate chips.. maybe there is a reason to have them prepackaged in recipe sized bags..) So I ended up inviting over a pile of people to bake cookies with us.. Drew's friend Bianca from school and my neighbour and the girl she was watching.. (actually.. her kids were invited too.. but apparently not ALL kids like to bake..weird) It was a good time.. even the part where the kids were carrying the ingredients from the kitchen.. and Bianca was carrying the flour bag.. on her head.. sideways.. without realizing it was OPEN.. and was pouring a trail of flour behind her and down her back as she walked.... lol.. good thing I hadn...

So.. not much has changed.. emotionally I'm still a wreck.. though giving myself some distance has freed up some of my brain space.. I am not angry or sad ALL of the time now.. just most of it.. I'm still feeling pretty rejected.. and pretty lonely.. even though I've had people to hang around with.. which I am grateful for.. god knows.. I'm a pain in the ass and hard to be around.. I went swimming with dad this morning.. was nice.. no kids.. we got to sit and chat and not have to keep Joey (my insane son) from drowning himself... I got back in time to sit in on half of JK.. just in time to go to the bake sale.. (for future reference.. grade 8's are not always the best bakers...) and we lined up the kids to go down the hallway.. and the one girl grabs my hand and says that I should walk with her in case my little joey gets scared. (she was right behind joey..) so I said that I didn't think Joey minded where I was.. but I suspected she just liked me.. and she kind...

Well.. it's 3:34am.. and I can't sleep.. Do you ever get the feeling that you just don't fit anywhere??? cause that's where I'm at right now.. I just don't mesh.. I've spent the last 2 hours crying in bed... and decided to come down here and talk to my computer so Matty can get some sleep.. the poor man is trying to be supportive..he rubbed my back for an hour while I blubbered away.. but he does need his sleep.. Someone has to get up with the kids in the morning.. It has occurred to me that I don't really have anything more than friends in passing anymore.. you know.. the people you see once in a while.. and might stop for coffee with.. or hang out for a day once every few months.. and that's it.. and that really depresses me.. I keep thinking I was just born into the wrong decade..I seem to get along ok with people my ages moms... I wasn't raised like the kids around me.. we weren't allowed makeup.. miniskirts.. bikini's.. w...

It's time for another update on my life.. There's not a whole lot going on.. I've pretty much avoided JK this week.. only went in for one day.. I got to do patterns with the kids which translated means I got to play with halves of apples and get covered in paint... YIPPEE!!! I finally finished my outfit for this months theme.. 2 days left to go til a new theme.. I've already got the next two months themes figured out.. and I already have TONS of fabric for next months seeing as I went on a bit of a bender on boxing week last year.. :) I made Matching pants for Joey and Michael J.. though there was only enough fabric left for Michael j to have a jacket too.. Joey doesn't seem to mind.. though Drew was asking... interrogating more like.. why Joey didn't have a jacket too.. blast.. kids.. I've almost gotten through all the fabric that was left for me to put together by a friend of mine.. I've got ideas for some of it.. not sure what the heck I'm gonna d...

Bereaved Parents Wish List I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had her back . Y I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that she was important to you also. Y If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both. Y Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever. Y I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child; my favorite topic of the day. Y I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these things through a phone call, ...

I've always felt like a bit of a freak because most of my best friends are guys.. always have been.. always will be I guess.. I've lost a lot of friends to girlfriends who are jealous.. for no good reason other than previous relationships gone bad.. So I wanted to post this Dear Abby article from yesterday.. just to reenforce that I AM OK.. and it is OK for people to have opposite gender platonic friends WHILE they are in a relationship.. and it does not mean that they are F*CKING or WILL F*CK it just means that they are friends.. and I think more people should stand up for themselves.. and say.. hey.. you know what.. I'm not going to change who I am to be half of you.. I'm going to be me.. take it or leave it.. if you can't accept me for who I am.. then I guess I'm not the right person for you.. and I guess you're not the right person for me.. and if you can only trust me when I'm in your sight.. then I guess our relationship has bigger problems than m...

Well it's been another interesting week.. of course I've spent more time at the JK.. this week we made our jack o lantern. All I have to say is WOW.. one of the kids dad's came in and helped the kids make a blue's clue's Jack o lantern... with a cool pic of Blue and a bat on the front.. and then all the paw print "clues" in the back.. then he put in a flashing light.. and wow.. Clue's all over the wall behind a really cool looking pumpkin!! One of the kids will get to take it home tomorrow... Man I hope it's Joey... maybe I should volunteer monday... I was checking my emails this morning.. and It's Isadora Greta's Birthday!!! Dora is the CPK the my sister got me for my birthday.. she's an adorable hispanic girlie with beautiful long cornsilk hair.. I just loves her.. Maybe I'll make her a new dress today.. I have to make one for Celina's doll anyways.. she's been hinting that her CPK might like a new halloween dress...

I fully appreciate how much I love the chaos that is my life... Matt and the kids went up to the cottage for the weekend last weekend... and the silence around here was deafening.. I really am way too used to the constant roar of life happenning around me.. I think the entire weekend I just felt like crying I was so lonely for them.. On the other hand.. it's amazing how clean the house stays when it's just me here.. and how much sewing I can get done. I finally made my first quilt.. it was tiny.. but looks quite nice in my doll bed. I won some quilt squares off of ebay and thought they would make a much bigger quilt.. but for some reason 40 4" squares make a tiny little doll quilt.. oh well.. now I know.. What I want to do eventually is make new quilts for my bed and the kids beds.. it's probably better if I practice on doll quilts for a bit yet though... because quite frankly.. I suck.. It's been a good week... Matt's been in training in the evenings.. so he...