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So.. not much has changed.. emotionally I'm still a wreck.. though giving myself some distance has freed up some of my brain space.. I am not angry or sad ALL of the time now.. just most of it.. I'm still feeling pretty rejected.. and pretty lonely.. even though I've had people to hang around with.. which I am grateful for.. god knows.. I'm a pain in the ass and hard to be around.. I went swimming with dad this morning.. was nice.. no kids.. we got to sit and chat and not have to keep Joey (my insane son) from drowning himself... I got back in time to sit in on half of JK.. just in time to go to the bake sale.. (for future reference.. grade 8's are not always the best bakers...) and we lined up the kids to go down the hallway.. and the one girl grabs my hand and says that I should walk with her in case my little joey gets scared. (she was right behind joey..) so I said that I didn't think Joey minded where I was.. but I suspected she just liked me.. and she kind...

Well.. it's 3:34am.. and I can't sleep.. Do you ever get the feeling that you just don't fit anywhere??? cause that's where I'm at right now.. I just don't mesh.. I've spent the last 2 hours crying in bed... and decided to come down here and talk to my computer so Matty can get some sleep.. the poor man is trying to be supportive..he rubbed my back for an hour while I blubbered away.. but he does need his sleep.. Someone has to get up with the kids in the morning.. It has occurred to me that I don't really have anything more than friends in passing anymore.. you know.. the people you see once in a while.. and might stop for coffee with.. or hang out for a day once every few months.. and that's it.. and that really depresses me.. I keep thinking I was just born into the wrong decade..I seem to get along ok with people my ages moms... I wasn't raised like the kids around me.. we weren't allowed makeup.. miniskirts.. bikini's.. w...

It's time for another update on my life.. There's not a whole lot going on.. I've pretty much avoided JK this week.. only went in for one day.. I got to do patterns with the kids which translated means I got to play with halves of apples and get covered in paint... YIPPEE!!! I finally finished my outfit for this months theme.. 2 days left to go til a new theme.. I've already got the next two months themes figured out.. and I already have TONS of fabric for next months seeing as I went on a bit of a bender on boxing week last year.. :) I made Matching pants for Joey and Michael J.. though there was only enough fabric left for Michael j to have a jacket too.. Joey doesn't seem to mind.. though Drew was asking... interrogating more like.. why Joey didn't have a jacket too.. blast.. kids.. I've almost gotten through all the fabric that was left for me to put together by a friend of mine.. I've got ideas for some of it.. not sure what the heck I'm gonna d...

Bereaved Parents Wish List I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had her back . Y I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that she was important to you also. Y If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both. Y Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever. Y I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child; my favorite topic of the day. Y I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these things through a phone call, ...

I've always felt like a bit of a freak because most of my best friends are guys.. always have been.. always will be I guess.. I've lost a lot of friends to girlfriends who are jealous.. for no good reason other than previous relationships gone bad.. So I wanted to post this Dear Abby article from yesterday.. just to reenforce that I AM OK.. and it is OK for people to have opposite gender platonic friends WHILE they are in a relationship.. and it does not mean that they are F*CKING or WILL F*CK it just means that they are friends.. and I think more people should stand up for themselves.. and say.. hey.. you know what.. I'm not going to change who I am to be half of you.. I'm going to be me.. take it or leave it.. if you can't accept me for who I am.. then I guess I'm not the right person for you.. and I guess you're not the right person for me.. and if you can only trust me when I'm in your sight.. then I guess our relationship has bigger problems than m...

Well it's been another interesting week.. of course I've spent more time at the JK.. this week we made our jack o lantern. All I have to say is WOW.. one of the kids dad's came in and helped the kids make a blue's clue's Jack o lantern... with a cool pic of Blue and a bat on the front.. and then all the paw print "clues" in the back.. then he put in a flashing light.. and wow.. Clue's all over the wall behind a really cool looking pumpkin!! One of the kids will get to take it home tomorrow... Man I hope it's Joey... maybe I should volunteer monday... I was checking my emails this morning.. and It's Isadora Greta's Birthday!!! Dora is the CPK the my sister got me for my birthday.. she's an adorable hispanic girlie with beautiful long cornsilk hair.. I just loves her.. Maybe I'll make her a new dress today.. I have to make one for Celina's doll anyways.. she's been hinting that her CPK might like a new halloween dress...

I fully appreciate how much I love the chaos that is my life... Matt and the kids went up to the cottage for the weekend last weekend... and the silence around here was deafening.. I really am way too used to the constant roar of life happenning around me.. I think the entire weekend I just felt like crying I was so lonely for them.. On the other hand.. it's amazing how clean the house stays when it's just me here.. and how much sewing I can get done. I finally made my first quilt.. it was tiny.. but looks quite nice in my doll bed. I won some quilt squares off of ebay and thought they would make a much bigger quilt.. but for some reason 40 4" squares make a tiny little doll quilt.. oh well.. now I know.. What I want to do eventually is make new quilts for my bed and the kids beds.. it's probably better if I practice on doll quilts for a bit yet though... because quite frankly.. I suck.. It's been a good week... Matt's been in training in the evenings.. so he...

Well.. I've had another interesting morning at JK.... today was our thanksgiving party.. which translated means.. I got to stuff paperbags full of popcorn and staple turkey heads on em.. and then I got to share the food.. which rocked!! So almost at the end of the meal it was time to take photo's of the kids for their memory books.. and the thought occurs to me.. maybe we shoulda done pictures BEFORE the grape juice... and we're doing the pictures with their little turkeys that they (read "me") made.. and Isabella starts crowing like a rooster.. COCKADOODLEDOO.. while making her turkey move like he's making the noise.. so I try to explain that turkeys say GOBBLEGOBBLEGOBBLE... but seriously.. none of them would beleive me.. and the next thing you know.. the whole room is a chorus of COCKADOODLEDOO's and LOUD.. and I've totally lost control.. Teacher saves the day... shut off the light.. silence.. why the heck didn't I think of that??? ...

Well.. sorry it's been so long.. I've been sick.. and busy :) It's been a fun bit of time.. have had a week off of work now because of a sinus infection.. and when I say off of work.. I mean.. I couldn't even babysit.. I was THAT sick....ick.. I HATE getting sick.. Things at the school have quieted down.. most of the trouble makers have been moved to the afternoon class.. something to do with them being in daycare anyways.. and because of that being more flexible.. though I find it kinda funny that for the most part.. only the REALLY bad kids got put in the afternoon.. with Heba thrown in to make up for it... (she's a complete little sweetheart)... I'm not sure why Muslims would put their kid into a catholic school.. but hey.. it's their decision.. We spent the last couple days putting together turkey bums with the JK class... see.. they're going to be making turkeys out of paper bags.. filled with popcorn.. and we were making the turkeys ...

Well.. another exciting morning in the life of Sheri.. for starters.. I stayed up WAY too late last night.. Matt's buddies came over.. and I was sewing Cabbage Patch Kid clothes until about 10..(I stayed home from work cause I had a sore throat and tummy ache and headache and had intended to go to bed around 9) and then me and matt stayed up talking until about 2... which is really stupid when I've gotta be up at 7:30...... blah We wouldn't have been up so late.. in fact I WAS in bed at 10 ish.. but then Matt came up and told me that he had loaded the bread machine backwards.. and now our bread for tomorrow has a big hole in the middle of it... which is not exactly helpful for making sandwiches.. So I was determined that I would not have to get up at 7 and bike to the store to buy bread to make sandwiches... so I got up and made biscuits.. so the kids would have something resembling bread in their lunches.. Matt thought I was nuts baking at that hour.. so I told him to ...

Well... the date was mostly good...We went for dinner at Harveys...and then we ended up playing mini gold.. which I think I beat Matt by about a million points.. and then we went to Chapters.. The mini golf was fun.. I think I've realized why Matt's putting takes so many strokes to get the ball into the hole... the more times he misses... the harder he hits the ball.. the farther away it gets.. I don't know what the REAL rules are.. but he had me playing where if my ball fell off the fairway I had to start over and take the shots taken as penalty.. but he had a MAX of 10 strokes per hole... (which he actually had to use three times... teehee) Anyways.. I seriously hope it helps his gold game that we had all that practice putting.. :) When we got to Chapters there was a Jazz band playing 1940's classic Jazz tunes.. They were really good.. but what shocked the heck out of me.. was when I looked at them and realized that I don't think a single one of them had...

Today was Grape Day... for anyone who doesn't live in St.Catharines.. this might totally perplex you.. actually.. I'm from Hamilton.. so it totally perplexes me too.. Everyone around here has this big deal about the Grape and Wine festival... (They've really changed the name to the WINE FESTIVAL it's better for tourism) Where mr.Grape wanders around and plays with the kids.. and the adults get smashed... and watch really crappy (and sometimes good so I hear but has yet to be proven) bands.. (maybe they like it cause they're drunk??) The whole city is in an uproar because they're kicked grape out of the title.. and in doing so have alienated anyone under the legal drinking age.. and those people allergic to alcohol.... (like me) So in junior kindergarten each year.. the teacher has a little grape party.. where the kids get to try all these different grape things.. white grapes, purple grapes, seedless grapes, seedy grapes, purple grape juice, white grape...

"Time to go to work, work all night search for underpants hey! We won't stop until we have underpants Yum tum yummy tum day!"

Well, it's been an interesting week, to say the least. Joey is now in school every day.. YAY and the co op student in his class is someone whose parents are good friends with another of my good friends... so hopefully I will have one spoiled little monkey this year.. lol. I've started another babysitting job.. which is cool.. a few afternoons a week just during the afternoon when Joey is home alone with no one to play with.. Drew's friend Jordan's little brother Riley.. so that works out ok. I took them swimming on wednesday last week.. and I guess this kid has never used water wings... only life jackets.. so we're on the way to the pool and he keeps asking "but how will we cloat?" the kid has a bit of a speach problem.. and I keep telling him that the water wings will make him float.. and he keeps asking "but how will we cloat?" and we get there and throw the water wings on him.. and he has no clue.. really doesn't beleive th...

This morning was nice... I took Joey to the park.. We walked over to the market... and then to the library... It's good to be busy.. though I don't know why the market decides to charge more for veggies that look to be seconds.. than the grocery store charges.. seriously people.. if I can get a basket of peaches from Zehrs for 2.99$ what makes you think I'll pay you 4.50$??? Idiots... same thing with tomatoes.. at the market.. she'd give them to me CHEAP for 10$ a bushel.. IF I buy 3 bushels.. (never mind that I don't have enough jars to can 3 bushels.. or time in a week) But I saw bushels at Zehrs as low as 7.99$.... and I only had to buy ONE!!!! I bet you can guess where I got my tomatoes from... On with the story... all we ended up getting at the market was a cookie and a spinach pastry... (funny story in this too..) We went up to the bakery guy.. and he's got these plastic dome lids over his wares... (good wares too.. a tad over priced.. but goo...